Darling, you were already in my 'Asshole bucket'

I was in this clinic near to my house and suddenly I received a miss called from the number that I am very familiar but can't recall who would it be. Hence I just ignored it as I was not feeling well and queuing to see the doctor for almost 1 hour already. Not long after that, I received an SMS

Anonymous: Awak, can we talk?

I was like, what the heck?

At first you have miss called me like college time? What do you expect?me to call you? Such a loser..

Then I tried very hard to recall again whose number is this and at last I just remembered this number is belongs to this big jack ass which he is having the cell number same like his wife has just a different by one integer. But still I was uncertain as it might belongs to the wife. And maybe the wife would like to apologize as she has told my ex-schoolmate that I am a bad person and lots of foul words and I believe she did exaggerate the stories so that people will feel bad for what had happened and will make sure my life will be miserable with not being friends with me anymore. But hei lady, you know what? Too bad, the stories reached me on that day itself while you were FB chatting with her. You are too gullible.

Well, back to the story, for precaution i replied,

Me: What do you want?

Anonymous: Can we talk somewhere else? Gtalk perhaps? -- (I Cant recall the exact words as his English is sucks hence I just used my wordings. By the way, from the moment the word 'Gtalk' appeared, I knew already, this must be the Asshole not the brain dead wife.

Me: I am not convenient. Just chat over the sms

Asshole: I would like to seek for your appologies

Me: You have been forgiven

Asshole: Please give me a chance

Me: For what?!

Asshole: I can go on with my life that I'm having right now and acted like nothing happen. But frankly, I really felt that something missing in my everyday life which is YOU.

At this very moment, I really pray that he is near to me. That I could go and see him, face to face, so that he is near to me physically. And that would be easier for me to kick his ass and punch to his clown face and also smack him down. Then I would start the car engine, I can hit him using my car, then I will reverse and hit him again over and over again.

I never reply his SMS.

Asshole: Wait ya. I will continue to SMS you using my other number

Then I went back peacefully hoping that he won't SMS me again. But this bloody asshole still kept on trying his luck to try on me again. darn!

Asshole: So?

Me: Lantas?

Asshole: Eventhough I am no longer in your FB friend's list, but sudilah kiranya awak dapat terima saya kembali

oh dear, luckly you were far away from me. If not you will received my 'present'.

Me: At the moment money and family are the only matter to me. Not more than that.

At this time, actually I really was about to SMS him saying that, hei man, are you crazy? Your wife will surely accuse me for wanting to tackle you and will tell the whole world that I am after you and not you were after me. And yes, i bet you did tell you wife this way right..If not why she would tell the whole world about this. But it was really funny as the way she puts it some sort like you are a superstar that all women are after you.haha..don't you realized that you are afar from that, honey? You two are really meant to be together. Stick together..

But I decided not to tell you all these nonsense as I don't trust you at all. You might be fighting with your wife about this but you will add some sugar and spice and create the stories/ fairy tales so that she will puts all the blames on me. You are such predictable aren't you?

Then I never reply at all to your SMS but I'm keeping it for me to show to my dear besties so that she will take note to the story just a preparation in case in the future anyone try to 'Fitnah' or 'Aib' me as a single parent.

Then he did the reverse psychology

Asshole: oh ok..i understand if you wouldn't accept me anymore

Haha..for sure this jackass was hoping I will charm him back...oh puhlissssss.. Ask your wife to do that. I don't have appetite on you. Try your luck to some other ladies please.

Guys nowadays, think women are stupid that they could twist just like that.

Get a life!

By the way, you were already in my Asshole bucket not long after I removed you from my FB friend's list. I am not planning to move you out from that bucket. Stay there together with bunch of idiots.

A Msg from the GF of the EX-Hubby

assalamualaikum

dear whoever (which one) you are

i don't know you

and you don't know me either

and i guess, i don't deserve such foul words like this

i don't know what kind of information or fairy tales or grandmother-grandfather stories that you have listened from him or from whoever

and actually i don't really want to know

i have moved on

can say that seriously i have forgotten about him completely already

i have my own family now

and when I received this IM msg, it took me sometimes to think back who are you and why were you been sending me this kind of rude msgs by downgrading other woman and not to forget, downgrading yourself too, dear

for me, fight for a man, that I bet you did realized that something wrong with this guy, lots of lies, twisted words, womanizer like this

i mean, dear, we, as a woman, we have to value our pride

we have to put it as high as possible

being brainwashed, being lied, being treated like junks some sort of putting your pride down to the drain

dear mate, it's been 3-4 years already, basi dah story bout him

if you want him, just take him

i've got nothing to do with him anymore

even i don't interfere at all his personal life with you or with whomever currently he is attached to

why were you have to look for me?

what do you want from me actually?

you want him? just take him

i won't stop

moreover, I would be glad if he can divert all of his memories with me towards you

i don't want him to think about our memories, or pass experience anymore

i am very happy with my life

alhamdulillah so far Allah is really protect our family

so I assumed that currently you are having problems and big doubts of your ridiculous ridiculously relationship with him

so that is between you and him

do not drag me or anyone else into the picture

trust me, people are not interested to know about it

they might be listening to all the problems you shared with them, but trust me, we don't care

so stop insulting me, insulting my friends or who ever that knows me

like i said

just take him and leave us alone

hidup kita di dunia nie bukan untuk pleasure semata2 dik. Kita hanya singgah sekejap sementara nak sampai ke akhirat

muhasabah diri banyak2 dari nak tunding jari kat org lain dengan masalah yang kamu hadapi sekarang nie

kumpul banyak2 'saham' sebagai bekalan di akhirat

sejenak, cuba duduk di satu sudut sorang2 and think back, cukup ke bekalan dan amal ibadat aku?

dik, kita nie tak tau bila mati kita

entah ke kejap lagi ke

cuba bayangkan, kalau la kita mati hari nie, and di akhirat, kita nak persembahkan diri kita di depan Allah tanpa bekalan kebajikan yang cukup. yang hanya kita bawak adalah caci maki dan dosa2 besar mahupun kecil

agak2 layak tak kita nak berhadapan dengan allah di akhirat?

anggap la ni nasihat sesama umat

jika masih berkeras nak kecam dan menghina saya atau sapa jua, itu terpulang saya tak boleh halang sb hak masing2 kan

saya berserah pada Allah..biar masalah antara hambaNya handled by Allah

-Stay away from me, my family, friends and my love ones-

Keep on moving and never turn back

I moved on..

I bet anyone that is in my shoes will do the same too


I value my life by revolving around my love ones in order to maintain the good aura and to be blessed by Allah


Alhamdulillah, I have a wonderful life that I have never imagine at all. Before, I always prayed to have happiness in my life and there it goes.. Allah grant my wishes..


A reminder for me, do not ever trade this gifts from Allah with something that worthless. Always listen to the intuitions (6th Sense I supposed) that is always right and not to forget to pray hard to him for HIS Nur while waiting for the life in the after life, Akhirat.


Ya Allah, forgive me for all of my sins and bless me, my family, friends and my love ones. Don't stop giving us Nur so that we will be placed as high as possible next to you past, present, future and the after life. Amin

Luscious-Succulent-Yummy Cakes

Becoming a single mommy is not easy as it looks as I am the sole breadwinner and I have to work super hard to make sure all of my baby gal's needs enough and no complaints but compliment indeed :D. Hence I have decided to do a double job..and who knows if I can become a Supermommy I could do triple...quadruple or more job at once..If God's will everything is possible..insyaallah..

Here are some of the photos of the cakes that been ordered by my customers. Thanks to all for the supports given consecutively..for December, I have 3 more orders to go..hope I can have more orders in the future ..amin :)


Mini Cheese Cake with Choco Moouse with lotsa scattered choco




Cheese cake with Chocolate Ganache





Chocolate Cheese Cake nyum nyum




Cheese cake with Chocolate Moouse + Chocolate Ganache...phew




Marshmellow Strawberry Cheese Cake




MU Theme's Chocolate Super Moist Cake with Chocolate Ganache




Toy Story's Themes Chocolate Moist Cake




Double-Dose Rich Cheese Cake





And last but not least........


TAAAADAAAAAA!!!



The Wedding Cake :D


Two-Tier Red and White Themes Wedding Cake





The Lower case



The Upper Case




And alhamdulillah as the orders keep coming in..thanks to all who gave the full support to me..and the most important is Thanks to Allah coz help to make my life smooth alhamdulillah :)

Alhamdulillah

Jika kita sentiasa bersyukur dan mengingati Allah dengan penuh rasa bersyukur tanpa perasaan riaq insyaallah Allah takkan mengecewakan kita..serta banyakkan bersedekah dan memberi zakat untuk penyucian rohani..nie la pegangan yang aku pegang dan alhamdulillah mmg aku tak kecewa...


Flasback

Masa masih bergelar isteri, keadaan aku sangat susah..kalau nampak duit seringgit pun sangat happy.Pinjam kat kengkawan toksah dok kata la..siap ramai yang tanak kawan dan pandang aku dengan perasaan jijik..ya la..time susah tak ramai yang ada kan..and alhamdulillah ada jugak la sorang dua yang sangat ikhlas berada di sisi aku hingga ke saat ini..Kawan sangat sennag nak dicari, sahabat sangat susah nak cari.. :)

pernah sekali korek sana korek sini jumpa duit RM5, suka tak terkata terus pecut ke kedai runcit beli beras timbang RM 2, ikan bilis, cili kering and bawang mawang untuk bekalan seminggu..itu pun aku tak pernah lupakan tanggungjawab sebagai isteri walaupun tidak bernasib baik dapat suami yang ignorance..nak buat mcm mana..buruk2 pun suami aku...pegi keja di awal pagi, setengah jam sebelum lunch hour curi2 balik gara2 nak menyiapkan makanan untuk dijamah oleh suami yang nyenyak dibuai mimpi..lepas tu bergelut ke tempat kerja lagi dengan fuel warning bling2 dari semalam...tawakal aja la...mcm tu la rutin aku setiap hari..

Pernah jugak la suami yang dah tak balik seminggu gara2 sibuk bersosial dengan teman tapi mesra beliau..aku without failed akan masak at least for dinner gara2 tak dapat nak jangka bila suami akan balik...setelah beberapa hari aku sakit migrain mutah tak lalu makan segala..kol suami and dia janji nak balik malam tu tapi tak timbul2 jugak..masuk hari kedua aku gagahkan diri bawak keta ketaq2 ke klinik...balik dari klinik dengan matahari terpacak di atas kepala, di depan traffic light, tup2 kereta tak leh start..minyak habis!kredit tuk kol suami pun tadak!duit sekupang pun tadak! pemandu lain dah mula maki hamun siap buat tangan + dirty sign kat aku...aku sangat sedih time nih...and dengan tak semena2 ada la sorang lelaki nie, sanggup berenti dan tolong belikan minyak dua kali ulang alik beli minyak tuk aku gara2 tank minyak sangat empty...alhamdulillah..aku yakin tuhan yang tolong aku tatau nak balas budi mcm mana...and also the worst part was, on that day itself was my 1st year of wedding anniversary..well, seemed like I created the story but demi Allah it is the truth...hence, mengenangkan duit pun tadak dengantak sihatnya and tadak org nak tgk aku, so i have decided untuk patah balik ke rumah arwah mak tok..kat sana la diaorg jaga aku bagi makan semua lengkap and i feel like home (at that time my family dah ignore aku gara2 degil nak pertahankan marriage yang mmg nampak takkan berjaya tu)..and tengah malam tu baru la suami sms, "happy anniversary and sori tak boleh balik"..padahal dia tau akutak sihat..and maksu aku realized something wrong with me and cuba menleraikan kekusutan aku..I still remember maksu sent sms kat suami aku cakap "jika dah takmau, pulangkan cara elok pada family dia"..and dia just reply "ok" but tadak any tindakan..we have waited for 1 month and no response from him. Then I have decided for the first time naik turun pejabat agama masuk keluaq mahkamah, melilau cari lawyer.. susah rupanya bercerai..serik nak kawin lagi..huhu

Even though aku hired lawyer and that time I was preggy about 8 weeks, my case berjaya di setle time tu my baby dah 3 bulan...sangat lama kan..tu tara ada lawyer..kalo tadak lawyer or yang guna bantuan guaman ka..tatau la berapa tahun nak setle..kemungkinan besar akan gantung tak bertali..kesian nasib isteri2 yang tertindas kan..good luck lah untuk para suami yang tak bertanggungjawab yang senang hati mempermain2kan hukum Allah nie..

Now-New Chapter-Future

Here I am...as a daughter...as a sister....as a friend..and the most important after as hamba Allah is as a mother cum father cum everything to my much-loved-adored-beloved daughter, El..

I always remembered myself, El hanya ada aku..aku lah yang bertanggungjawab nak sara hidup dia dan jadi manusia yang berguna dan hamba Allah yang baik serta tak nak El terpikir sikit pun yang hidup dia tak lengkap or ibu tak boleh nak bagi seperti conventional family yang lain. Ya, in between ada juga makhluk2 Allah yang insensitive yang memperlekeh, menghina, menghasut, memfitnah, mengambil kesempatan dan lain2 lagi lah yang negative terhadap aku yang boleh dikatakan handicapped nie.Siap ada la makhluk yang maha bodo bangang and brain dead nie punya la tatau nak kondem aku and pengaruh rakan yang lain siap mempersoalkan "huh? dia suruh anak dia panggil 'ibu?'tak sesuaikan...sangat tak sesuaikan" dan ulang berkali2..lantas ang nak anak aku panggil apa? Napa? hina sangat ka? Macam aku, kau pun pernah buat dosa kat Allah kan..kalau la Allah ada sifat terhina dan tercela mcm ang ni, sampai la hidup ang kacau bilau okeh..Allah dah kurniakan life and complete and on the right path, u shod be thankful nie tidak, riak dan menghina org yang tidak bernasib baik..so jaga2 ha..karma Allah makin dekat...

Kalau nak fikirkan kecewa, sedih or nak melayan mereka2 yang retard nie mmg tak kemana la hidup aku and El..I know I have to be really strong than ever all because of El so that we can have a perfect life better than anyone else. May Allah bare with us and we can live happily for the rest our life and of course after life..Amin..

"Lose some win more..I have lost my marriage and I let go of it and Allah replaced it with rezeki yang tak terhingga yang tak pernah terlintas ever in my mind before..Miracle, ait... Redha, tawakal dan percaya itulah keywordnya"


Semoga Allah jauhkan kami sekeluarga dan juga rakan2 dari ,makhluk yang jahat dan penuh dengan hasat dengki..Moga kami semua bahagia dunia akhirat..Amin ya rabbal alamin ...