A Msg from the GF of the EX-Hubby

assalamualaikum

dear whoever (which one) you are

i don't know you

and you don't know me either

and i guess, i don't deserve such foul words like this

i don't know what kind of information or fairy tales or grandmother-grandfather stories that you have listened from him or from whoever

and actually i don't really want to know

i have moved on

can say that seriously i have forgotten about him completely already

i have my own family now

and when I received this IM msg, it took me sometimes to think back who are you and why were you been sending me this kind of rude msgs by downgrading other woman and not to forget, downgrading yourself too, dear

for me, fight for a man, that I bet you did realized that something wrong with this guy, lots of lies, twisted words, womanizer like this

i mean, dear, we, as a woman, we have to value our pride

we have to put it as high as possible

being brainwashed, being lied, being treated like junks some sort of putting your pride down to the drain

dear mate, it's been 3-4 years already, basi dah story bout him

if you want him, just take him

i've got nothing to do with him anymore

even i don't interfere at all his personal life with you or with whomever currently he is attached to

why were you have to look for me?

what do you want from me actually?

you want him? just take him

i won't stop

moreover, I would be glad if he can divert all of his memories with me towards you

i don't want him to think about our memories, or pass experience anymore

i am very happy with my life

alhamdulillah so far Allah is really protect our family

so I assumed that currently you are having problems and big doubts of your ridiculous ridiculously relationship with him

so that is between you and him

do not drag me or anyone else into the picture

trust me, people are not interested to know about it

they might be listening to all the problems you shared with them, but trust me, we don't care

so stop insulting me, insulting my friends or who ever that knows me

like i said

just take him and leave us alone

hidup kita di dunia nie bukan untuk pleasure semata2 dik. Kita hanya singgah sekejap sementara nak sampai ke akhirat

muhasabah diri banyak2 dari nak tunding jari kat org lain dengan masalah yang kamu hadapi sekarang nie

kumpul banyak2 'saham' sebagai bekalan di akhirat

sejenak, cuba duduk di satu sudut sorang2 and think back, cukup ke bekalan dan amal ibadat aku?

dik, kita nie tak tau bila mati kita

entah ke kejap lagi ke

cuba bayangkan, kalau la kita mati hari nie, and di akhirat, kita nak persembahkan diri kita di depan Allah tanpa bekalan kebajikan yang cukup. yang hanya kita bawak adalah caci maki dan dosa2 besar mahupun kecil

agak2 layak tak kita nak berhadapan dengan allah di akhirat?

anggap la ni nasihat sesama umat

jika masih berkeras nak kecam dan menghina saya atau sapa jua, itu terpulang saya tak boleh halang sb hak masing2 kan

saya berserah pada Allah..biar masalah antara hambaNya handled by Allah

-Stay away from me, my family, friends and my love ones-

Keep on moving and never turn back

I moved on..

I bet anyone that is in my shoes will do the same too


I value my life by revolving around my love ones in order to maintain the good aura and to be blessed by Allah


Alhamdulillah, I have a wonderful life that I have never imagine at all. Before, I always prayed to have happiness in my life and there it goes.. Allah grant my wishes..


A reminder for me, do not ever trade this gifts from Allah with something that worthless. Always listen to the intuitions (6th Sense I supposed) that is always right and not to forget to pray hard to him for HIS Nur while waiting for the life in the after life, Akhirat.


Ya Allah, forgive me for all of my sins and bless me, my family, friends and my love ones. Don't stop giving us Nur so that we will be placed as high as possible next to you past, present, future and the after life. Amin

Luscious-Succulent-Yummy Cakes

Becoming a single mommy is not easy as it looks as I am the sole breadwinner and I have to work super hard to make sure all of my baby gal's needs enough and no complaints but compliment indeed :D. Hence I have decided to do a double job..and who knows if I can become a Supermommy I could do triple...quadruple or more job at once..If God's will everything is possible..insyaallah..

Here are some of the photos of the cakes that been ordered by my customers. Thanks to all for the supports given consecutively..for December, I have 3 more orders to go..hope I can have more orders in the future ..amin :)


Mini Cheese Cake with Choco Moouse with lotsa scattered choco




Cheese cake with Chocolate Ganache





Chocolate Cheese Cake nyum nyum




Cheese cake with Chocolate Moouse + Chocolate Ganache...phew




Marshmellow Strawberry Cheese Cake




MU Theme's Chocolate Super Moist Cake with Chocolate Ganache




Toy Story's Themes Chocolate Moist Cake




Double-Dose Rich Cheese Cake





And last but not least........


TAAAADAAAAAA!!!



The Wedding Cake :D


Two-Tier Red and White Themes Wedding Cake





The Lower case



The Upper Case




And alhamdulillah as the orders keep coming in..thanks to all who gave the full support to me..and the most important is Thanks to Allah coz help to make my life smooth alhamdulillah :)

Alhamdulillah

Jika kita sentiasa bersyukur dan mengingati Allah dengan penuh rasa bersyukur tanpa perasaan riaq insyaallah Allah takkan mengecewakan kita..serta banyakkan bersedekah dan memberi zakat untuk penyucian rohani..nie la pegangan yang aku pegang dan alhamdulillah mmg aku tak kecewa...


Flasback

Masa masih bergelar isteri, keadaan aku sangat susah..kalau nampak duit seringgit pun sangat happy.Pinjam kat kengkawan toksah dok kata la..siap ramai yang tanak kawan dan pandang aku dengan perasaan jijik..ya la..time susah tak ramai yang ada kan..and alhamdulillah ada jugak la sorang dua yang sangat ikhlas berada di sisi aku hingga ke saat ini..Kawan sangat sennag nak dicari, sahabat sangat susah nak cari.. :)

pernah sekali korek sana korek sini jumpa duit RM5, suka tak terkata terus pecut ke kedai runcit beli beras timbang RM 2, ikan bilis, cili kering and bawang mawang untuk bekalan seminggu..itu pun aku tak pernah lupakan tanggungjawab sebagai isteri walaupun tidak bernasib baik dapat suami yang ignorance..nak buat mcm mana..buruk2 pun suami aku...pegi keja di awal pagi, setengah jam sebelum lunch hour curi2 balik gara2 nak menyiapkan makanan untuk dijamah oleh suami yang nyenyak dibuai mimpi..lepas tu bergelut ke tempat kerja lagi dengan fuel warning bling2 dari semalam...tawakal aja la...mcm tu la rutin aku setiap hari..

Pernah jugak la suami yang dah tak balik seminggu gara2 sibuk bersosial dengan teman tapi mesra beliau..aku without failed akan masak at least for dinner gara2 tak dapat nak jangka bila suami akan balik...setelah beberapa hari aku sakit migrain mutah tak lalu makan segala..kol suami and dia janji nak balik malam tu tapi tak timbul2 jugak..masuk hari kedua aku gagahkan diri bawak keta ketaq2 ke klinik...balik dari klinik dengan matahari terpacak di atas kepala, di depan traffic light, tup2 kereta tak leh start..minyak habis!kredit tuk kol suami pun tadak!duit sekupang pun tadak! pemandu lain dah mula maki hamun siap buat tangan + dirty sign kat aku...aku sangat sedih time nih...and dengan tak semena2 ada la sorang lelaki nie, sanggup berenti dan tolong belikan minyak dua kali ulang alik beli minyak tuk aku gara2 tank minyak sangat empty...alhamdulillah..aku yakin tuhan yang tolong aku tatau nak balas budi mcm mana...and also the worst part was, on that day itself was my 1st year of wedding anniversary..well, seemed like I created the story but demi Allah it is the truth...hence, mengenangkan duit pun tadak dengantak sihatnya and tadak org nak tgk aku, so i have decided untuk patah balik ke rumah arwah mak tok..kat sana la diaorg jaga aku bagi makan semua lengkap and i feel like home (at that time my family dah ignore aku gara2 degil nak pertahankan marriage yang mmg nampak takkan berjaya tu)..and tengah malam tu baru la suami sms, "happy anniversary and sori tak boleh balik"..padahal dia tau akutak sihat..and maksu aku realized something wrong with me and cuba menleraikan kekusutan aku..I still remember maksu sent sms kat suami aku cakap "jika dah takmau, pulangkan cara elok pada family dia"..and dia just reply "ok" but tadak any tindakan..we have waited for 1 month and no response from him. Then I have decided for the first time naik turun pejabat agama masuk keluaq mahkamah, melilau cari lawyer.. susah rupanya bercerai..serik nak kawin lagi..huhu

Even though aku hired lawyer and that time I was preggy about 8 weeks, my case berjaya di setle time tu my baby dah 3 bulan...sangat lama kan..tu tara ada lawyer..kalo tadak lawyer or yang guna bantuan guaman ka..tatau la berapa tahun nak setle..kemungkinan besar akan gantung tak bertali..kesian nasib isteri2 yang tertindas kan..good luck lah untuk para suami yang tak bertanggungjawab yang senang hati mempermain2kan hukum Allah nie..

Now-New Chapter-Future

Here I am...as a daughter...as a sister....as a friend..and the most important after as hamba Allah is as a mother cum father cum everything to my much-loved-adored-beloved daughter, El..

I always remembered myself, El hanya ada aku..aku lah yang bertanggungjawab nak sara hidup dia dan jadi manusia yang berguna dan hamba Allah yang baik serta tak nak El terpikir sikit pun yang hidup dia tak lengkap or ibu tak boleh nak bagi seperti conventional family yang lain. Ya, in between ada juga makhluk2 Allah yang insensitive yang memperlekeh, menghina, menghasut, memfitnah, mengambil kesempatan dan lain2 lagi lah yang negative terhadap aku yang boleh dikatakan handicapped nie.Siap ada la makhluk yang maha bodo bangang and brain dead nie punya la tatau nak kondem aku and pengaruh rakan yang lain siap mempersoalkan "huh? dia suruh anak dia panggil 'ibu?'tak sesuaikan...sangat tak sesuaikan" dan ulang berkali2..lantas ang nak anak aku panggil apa? Napa? hina sangat ka? Macam aku, kau pun pernah buat dosa kat Allah kan..kalau la Allah ada sifat terhina dan tercela mcm ang ni, sampai la hidup ang kacau bilau okeh..Allah dah kurniakan life and complete and on the right path, u shod be thankful nie tidak, riak dan menghina org yang tidak bernasib baik..so jaga2 ha..karma Allah makin dekat...

Kalau nak fikirkan kecewa, sedih or nak melayan mereka2 yang retard nie mmg tak kemana la hidup aku and El..I know I have to be really strong than ever all because of El so that we can have a perfect life better than anyone else. May Allah bare with us and we can live happily for the rest our life and of course after life..Amin..

"Lose some win more..I have lost my marriage and I let go of it and Allah replaced it with rezeki yang tak terhingga yang tak pernah terlintas ever in my mind before..Miracle, ait... Redha, tawakal dan percaya itulah keywordnya"


Semoga Allah jauhkan kami sekeluarga dan juga rakan2 dari ,makhluk yang jahat dan penuh dengan hasat dengki..Moga kami semua bahagia dunia akhirat..Amin ya rabbal alamin ...

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Awak,
It's been a while your image doesn't crossed my mind..
Semenjak bertembung dengan awak last weekend menyebabkan fikiran saya terganggu balik..
Amat suspend-tersirat darah-putus nyawa-kaget-ketar-lembut lutut bila setelah sekian lama tak nampak awak..puff!awak muncul depan mata saya..even awak lalu betul2 belakang saya amat dekat tapi awak tak perasan itu saya..mungkin saya dah tak hot mcm dulu?tapi rasanya sb saya purposely membelakangkan awak..bagus jugak awak tak nampak saya,at least it wont complicate things again..


Awak..
hari tu, saya dengan anak kita...anak kita dah besar...dah boleh cakap dah pun..anak kita amat Independent, mcm saya jugak..she is a very fast learner too..I am proud to have her in my life..but too bad you missed every precious moments..Your lost



Awak..
sometimes i wonder..are you happy now? I bet you are not..mesti bayangan saya menghantui the rest of your life kan..you are such an idiot-stupid F asshole..we almost have it all..Allah has arranged everything very nice but you have spoiled it..

Awak..
Ingat tak awak cakap nak jaga saya betul2..awak nak bahagiakan saya..awak tanak anak2 kita faced the same sad life you once had? but you spoiled it to the max.
I have gone through a lot of miserable-chaos-fiasco-disaster more than happiness when I'm with you..in split of second you have changed my life upside down..I have tried to be a perfect wife but it was never enough.



Awak..
Because of you, saya amat2 anti dengan mana2 lelaki..for me all of them are pervert..mana mungkin akan ada lelaki lain yang akan wujud dalam hidup saya selepas awak..->Saya benci awak ketat ketat
Because of you saya dicaci maki sebab status saya.. --> Saya benci awak sangat sangat
Because of you setiap lelaki yang cuba nak dekati saya semuanya try to hurt my feelings -> Saya benci awak kuat kuat
Because of you saya jadi 'handicap'...->Saya benci awak infiniti
Because of you kemungkinan anak kita akan go through a very tough moments in the future -> I hope you will be rotten in hell
Because of you because of you because of you..

Tapi..
Apa yang dah jadi, semua Allah dah atur..dulu saya amat2 depressed dengan apa yang terjadi..but i just realize that Allah dah penuhi permintaan saya selama ini..I have found a true happiness in life..my relationship with my parents+siblings+friends much more stronger..More respect to each other and no secret..I have my baby that really complete me..yang paling utama is, my relationship with Allah getting stronger and stronger..Segala dugaan yang jadi, mainly untuk penyucian dosa2 lampau regardless..


Sebagai hamba Allah yang hina dina, dah lama saya maafkan awak..mainly because saya mmg tak nak jumpa-bertembung dengan awak di akhirat nanti..Karma Allah itu pasti..I'm not sure how you will handle it, but all that I can say is good luck..

Awak..
Saya simpan memori suka kita elok2..
Saya jua takkan sedikit pun lupakan memori duka kita..

Good luck in your life
Adios-Sayonara-Good bye
Saya harap kita takkan bertembung-berjumpa lagi sb bagi saya, awak dah mati-tak wujud..

For me..
Saya harap saya akan be strong mengharungi hidup as a single mommy..it's a loooong way to go..
Saya harap saya dapat handle semua kesusahan suka duka bersama dengan anak saya
Saya harap Allah memberkati kehidupan saya+anak saya+keluarga+sahabat saya dunia akhirat
Saya harap Allah dapat jauhi saya dari org2 yang jahat yang seronok nak tgk kehancuran saya..serta seronok tgk saya berduka..
Saya harap Allah berkati kami sekeluarga dunia akhirat


Setiap dugaan Allah turunkan ikut kemampuan hambanya..I know I am strong and that is the reason Allah turunkan dugaan Maha besar..I have gone through a very2 rough situations..

I can't imagine if I have to go through the same terrible situation again..coz I am fragile..very..