It's been a while your image doesn't crossed my mind..
Semenjak bertembung dengan awak last weekend menyebabkan fikiran saya terganggu balik..
Amat suspend-tersirat darah-putus nyawa-kaget-ketar-lembut lutut bila setelah sekian lama tak nampak awak..puff!awak muncul depan mata saya..even awak lalu betul2 belakang saya amat dekat tapi awak tak perasan itu saya..mungkin saya dah tak hot mcm dulu?tapi rasanya sb saya purposely membelakangkan awak..bagus jugak awak tak nampak saya,at least it wont complicate things again..
Awak..
hari tu, saya dengan anak kita...anak kita dah besar...dah boleh cakap dah pun..anak kita amat Independent, mcm saya jugak..she is a very fast learner too..I am proud to have her in my life..but too bad you missed every precious moments..Your lost
Awak..
sometimes i wonder..are you happy now? I bet you are not..mesti bayangan saya menghantui the rest of your life kan..you are such an idiot-stupid F asshole..we almost have it all..Allah has arranged everything very nice but you have spoiled it..
Awak..
Ingat tak awak cakap nak jaga saya betul2..awak nak bahagiakan saya..awak tanak anak2 kita faced the same sad life you once had? but you spoiled it to the max.
I have gone through a lot of miserable-chaos-fiasco-disaster more than happiness when I'm with you..in split of second you have changed my life upside down..I have tried to be a perfect wife but it was never enough.
Awak..
Because of you, saya amat2 anti dengan mana2 lelaki..for me all of them are pervert..mana mungkin akan ada lelaki lain yang akan wujud dalam hidup saya selepas awak..->Saya benci awak ketat ketat
Because of you saya dicaci maki sebab status saya.. --> Saya benci awak sangat sangat
Because of you setiap lelaki yang cuba nak dekati saya semuanya try to hurt my feelings -> Saya benci awak kuat kuat
Because of you saya jadi 'handicap'...->Saya benci awak infiniti
Because of you kemungkinan anak kita akan go through a very tough moments in the future -> I hope you will be rotten in hell
Because of you because of you because of you..
Tapi..
Apa yang dah jadi, semua Allah dah atur..dulu saya amat2 depressed dengan apa yang terjadi..but i just realize that Allah dah penuhi permintaan saya selama ini..I have found a true happiness in life..my relationship with my parents+siblings+friends much more stronger..More respect to each other and no secret..I have my baby that really complete me..yang paling utama is, my relationship with Allah getting stronger and stronger..Segala dugaan yang jadi, mainly untuk penyucian dosa2 lampau regardless..
Sebagai hamba Allah yang hina dina, dah lama saya maafkan awak..mainly because saya mmg tak nak jumpa-bertembung dengan awak di akhirat nanti..Karma Allah itu pasti..I'm not sure how you will handle it, but all that I can say is good luck..
Awak..
Saya simpan memori suka kita elok2..
Saya jua takkan sedikit pun lupakan memori duka kita..
Good luck in your life
Adios-Sayonara-Good bye
Saya harap kita takkan bertembung-berjumpa lagi sb bagi saya, awak dah mati-tak wujud..
For me..
Saya harap saya akan be strong mengharungi hidup as a single mommy..it's a loooong way to go..
Saya harap saya dapat handle semua kesusahan suka duka bersama dengan anak saya
Saya harap Allah memberkati kehidupan saya+anak saya+keluarga+sahabat saya dunia akhirat
Saya harap Allah dapat jauhi saya dari org2 yang jahat yang seronok nak tgk kehancuran saya..serta seronok tgk saya berduka..
Saya harap Allah berkati kami sekeluarga dunia akhirat
Setiap dugaan Allah turunkan ikut kemampuan hambanya..I know I am strong and that is the reason Allah turunkan dugaan Maha besar..I have gone through a very2 rough situations..
I can't imagine if I have to go through the same terrible situation again..coz I am fragile..very..
