Toodle-oo

So the business trip is on again after a day they decided to cancel. Due to the business needs, I can't say much but to proceed with the plans.

I got another 2 days to prepare all of my goodies that I have dumped on the last weekend in my giant-red-suitcase blindly which up till today I haven't revisit yet what should and shouldn't I bring along. To be blunt, ever since, I am not good in packing. Not specifically when travelling, but each time going out with my Ellie, absolutely I will forget this and that up till today which Ellie is about to turn 3 years old! I kept on reminding myself that I should have a checklist but it's never happen so far.

The only thing that already confirmed to be packed and already did- my Ellie

Workload...hmm...this is crucial.. You see, I have piles of workloads which is never ending. They have hire my replacement and transitions are all done within 2 days (woho0!). Even I have managed to list down the process flow formally to the new colleague to refer when I'm away. Yes that was fast indeed!~

On the other hand, I have started to flair sourcing for other regions out of North pole. The expectation on the talents are much more higher concurrently with the compensations. Much more challenging demands compared to the current situations that i have. Guess I need to be super creative on promoting as well as convincing them. Need to workout on my interpersonal skills as well!~Over heard from one of my colleagues which was already there since new year, the hiring is crazee.gaaa~

Wish me luck!

I will be off this weekend and uncertain on when I will be back to my hometown. I will, in between, but it will be months ahead. Not sure what my life would be in the new place, but I really do looking forward for it.

Never stop pray hard so that everything goes smooth. Insyaallah. Bismillah and amin.

Toodle-oo~

A Long Solitary Walk

Everyone will surely has ups and downs

You might be star jumping today but whether tomorrow will be the same or other way around, we never know.

Life is not an easy matters. How good we were, anywhere, everywhere there will be creatures that will make our life miserable regardless..

Not that hurt if it's from nobody but it wounded terribly if it was from the person which we never ever imagine that will impair our emotions..

Plus with the passed experience which the memories loom over me for years and years which currently I fancy to be a loner.

I strongly do not trust most of the outsiders. Few can be trust, majority are all bogus.

For those seeking for relationships, mainly due to libido. I've bumped into many of this type.

Yeap, I do not have companion, but who knows in the future~only God knows.

At the moment, No Thank You.

While those who are not sincere enough seeking for friendships, it's all about to bring rainbows in their pathetic lifes. I have lotsa peps that pretended to be true friends but being bitchy at the back. They seemed refused to let me go until this very moment.

Sometimes I felt I rather stay inside than being outer surface as an object for Fitnah and Aib.

For a time I felt that I can't take it anymore. But when refers to our beloved holly messenger, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w., he too faced these situations even worst and yet he was standing still until the end. Price in return? Syurga indeed.

Dear Haters,

Please leave-be gone-forget about me. I too would love to have a normal life like you think you have.

Stop bullying those that 'handicap'.

Dear daughter, family and friends with good souls,

Hang in there with me as I will be stronger with your presents.

Dear fragile heart,

Be strong as Allah will always be with you.

Keywords - Sabar, Redha, Tawakal, Amal and Trust towards Allah for a brighter future and here after.

Dear Creator, Allah..

Please maintain the sanity in me and may your Nur shadows me and my love ones always.

May All of us be in your Firdausi.

Amin ya rabbal alamin~

Cubies

Work day and night is very tiring indeed. That's the main reason why I have to make sure my work space in a pleasant way-my way!

This is the pixie of my current working space.

Yah Yah.. I have a very tinie minie cubie where I have lotsa papers, documents, profiles, files that until this very moment I do not know how to store them in a decent way. I have lost my sense of how-to-organize-my-stuffs (as if I am? LOL)

I wish I can throw/ shred those papers but I can't as our trend over here, the management will sudden ask where this and that documents which like 2 years ago?? I wonder have they ever heard about paperless system?

I wish I can have a bigger cubie so that I can spread my legs comfortably and do sourcing with a peace in mind..gaaaa~

Compared to the cubie that i had from the previous work place, much more bigger. An L shape cubie. I just realised I do not have the full cubie pixie. Pardon muo for the human image in the pixie, please (blush).

I can organize all of my documents and it's easier to track down where or which file I have filed it. As a normal human, it took me sometimes to figure where i kept it..hihi. That was the main reason why I don't prefer filing jobs.Grrrrr!!

I have less patient of doing this. Not to forget the zillion times of paper cuts... Ouch!~

Back at home, yeap I will be still working. As a bakers.

Loves it soo much. Even if happen to be if the particular week I do not have any order/s, I was like can't keep myself from entering this working space. Then I will start to bake. Crazee ait?

Maybe that explains why I have gained weight like super scary lately..

And here we goes with the working space that I have for baking activities. Yeap I have such spacious baking room. Very comfortable. Thanks to my mummy as she has sacrificed her sewing space for me. I love you mummy!~

The baking room

The Oven

The twin taps

Usually El will be here while I'm baking. Playing games or watch videos and sometimes she will help me too. She even downloaded herself bakers games in my mobile. I can see that she loves to see me prepares for the ingredients up until the cake is ready. For the final touch which is decorations, I'll make sure she doze off first. Danger alert!

Some of the pixies on the tasks that I usually let her do it her self. She is very much helpful and will really behave and follow my instructions correctly. I wish she behaves each minutes not only when baking time. But still, she is ibu's adorable princess. I love you always dearie

Baby Ellie with the whisk

Wrapping the springform with the aluminium foil

Gosh! I seriously wish we do have our own bakery soon, dearie.

Love Hate Relationship

I used to hate my current car..

So many complaints I threw and usually I will exaggerate ~ this car is small, I don't like the color, I don't like the sounds when the engine's 'roar' and list of complaints goes on and on and on.

It was all because of him. :(

Last 5 years (or more) I used to have much more bigger car. An elegant Silver Metallic car. That was my 2nd car. A lot of sentimental values which one of it was when my dada sponsored big dimes for the down payment. No complains on the performance. Full satisfaction.

How do I get my current car?

It started after a year I've owned my car, I've got married. So usually-mainly my ex hubby will sent and fetched me to/from the office. He will drove me here and there where ever I want. But came to one stage, he won't let me even touched the steering. I was like "What's the matter with you, SOAB?!". But I kept mum as I don't want to create any scenes.

The maximum limit that I can't tolerate when he started asking me to hitched a ride with my office mates. I did an investigation and got to know that he was having affairs with several girls which he needs to send-fetch-send-fetch each of them. Like super idiot right. We had a very big-brutal fights, can say every single day. Yeah, we fought a lot up to certain level i felt like want to puke on his face. So one day, he proposed for me to buy a new car. Much more smaller but for the sake of I-need-my-own-transport, I agreed.

The craziest part was, when I have to pay for both cars and even the roadtax-insurance. Like so F insane! Then I decided to stop paying for the car he was using until one day I decided to let go that car with a very heavy heart. I called up the bank and asked them to repossessed my car. He was F berserk yet I felt relief but I cried a lot. I swear :'(

But who knows things changed..

It started with hates towards the new car but now, I really thank god that I bought my current car. (Thanks to you A**H***!)

Why?

When I moved down to KL, I brought so many things ~can say everything I've owned even I can't barely see what was inside the car (each roadblocks I failed) . Clothes, comforter, up to vase and so on. Oh ya, not to forget to my dear kittie. I once had a White Persian Cat which he followed me everywhere. Yeah, I brought him too :) (including his litter box too! ~blugheeh!)..

You see, small cars can't carry too many things as the car might be damage/ broken. But mine, still in a very good condition (and even I can drift summore)

When I moved back to my parents's mansion, i got a job in Island which I have to travel about 1 1/2 hours daily. Usually much more longer hours as everyday regardless morn or eve, there will be bumper to bumper jam!

It has both Auto&Manual gears which if I turn on my lazy mode, then I will just use the Auto. If I would like to speed then I will use the manual. :D

Fuel? Not a problem. This car has been designed to save fuels. I just need to refill my car tank half dimes than others did. Kewl, ait!

I have pals that using the same car like I am. They faced lotsa problems with theirs. Their cars in and out the workshop like zillion times.

Well, buying a car is like gambling. It's all about luck. Alhamdulillah my luck is always with cars. (Dear car, please behave!)

I don't have any problems to squeeze in into the small parking lot. Usually if there are no parking anymore, I will park whenever safe spot which other big car's drivers will envy (Bo0 h0o!~)

I once had a dream, at that time I still don't have baby yet. I dreamt that I was driving this small car, with a baby seat at the passenger's seat with a baby sat on it. That time we just finished our shopping. Just me and the baby. I can see it clearly. We were laughing, singing and very much joy.

How miracle right? Do I have super power or what (LOL)? This is the current situation me and my baby have. Every spare times i will bring my Ellie for outings. She surely happy and me and her will sing out loud together, chit chat and so on.. Oh Allah, thanks for the visions as it came true.

Everytime my Singaporean-Hongkie boss touched down to the mainland, I will always be his driver.

He: When you bought this car

Me: Guess 4-5 years already

He: Are you sure?

Me: Hmm..why boss?

He: It looks very new..Look at the bla bla bla..

Me: (Smiled from ear to ear)

I have named my car to Ellie. If I die, this car will automatically be Ellie's for FOC. That is one of the reasons why I looked after this car very deep as at least by the time Ellie can drive, it still in a perfect condition.

Moral of the story, have you ever heard about Local's saying - "Don't hate too much, might be the thing/ person that you hate will be the utmost favorable things in your life".

That's why I don't hate that much to anything/ anyone that makes me feel uneasy. I will forgive and forget as trust in God's Karma. I never Doa for bad things happen to those people that having dreadful souls (even though I know doa orang yang teraniaya sangat makbul). That is Allah's part. I keep in mind, problems between humans, lets the creator (Allah) settle it. Still, I will tune my be careful-don't trust mode for safety precaution.

On the other part, I constantly prayed that May all of the bad souls kept away from me and my love ones. Amin ~

Hang in there with me for a little while

Ellie,

Remember that we always 'marie go round' to the new housing areas?

Ibu always said,

"It's ok. One day, we will surely get one of these nice houses. Even better than this one"

Remember when Ibu was driving you to uptown/ downtown, and nice MPVs/ luxury cars passed by ibu's little car?

Ibu always said,

"It's ok. One day, we will surely get one of these nice cars. Even better than this one"

Remember when we did our window shoppings and u were eyeing on goodies that you like?

Ibu always said,

"It's ok. One day, when ibu have enough money, Ibu will buy you one. Even better than this one"

(And of course at the same time ibu will 'korek' our tabung and cut down my expenses and will surely bought it for you so that you won't feel that you are poles apart from the others that have conventional family.)

Remember when we heard people went for vacations here and there?

Ibu always said,

'It's ok. One day, we will have our nice holidays'

Ibu's no superhero but I love to be one

Ellie,

You are always be my major strength

Please stay with ibu through thick and thin

I will make sure our life will be better..soon

Bear with me for a little while

Have lotsa faiths in me

Ibu will try my very best level to not letting anyone to hurt you

Ibu loves you even more each second

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Ya Allah, may my journey with my Ellie will be smooth even if there are obstacles, we will stick together and will be stronger for the rest of our life till the Afterlife. Besides my family, She's all that I have..

Amin